Where did the child inside me go ?
How did I become so serious ? Well... Considering my quest for personal growth I always put moderation as a key factor for more or less everything. However I seem nowadays not to be able anymore to achieve a mental state of well-being given my behaviors. I have strong deep moral values which dictate my life and try to stick to them for as much as I can. It is unfortunately extremely hard to be what you believe in all the time. According to my beliefs I should NEVER drink, sleep late, overeat, eat sweet food, waste money on things which are not worth the price and also maybe be not serious (because I cannot find a justification for silliness). This leads to me being tense and stressed pretty frequently when I am around people whose values are not similar to mine, which is ALL THE TIME. I don't really care about people thinking I'm tense or uncool but I care about myself not being at ease with my environment. Thus the inner freedom which I have been looking since the begin